Love Talk #5

Catergory: Approaching

Sub Catergory: Street

Phrase

죄송해요. 바빠서요.

Sorry. I'm in a hurry.

Extra info:

This is said by both male and females.

Love Talk #4

Catergory: Approaching

Sub Catergory: Street

Phrase

잠시 이야기 할 수 있을까요?

Let me talk to you.

Extra info:

This is said by both male and females.

Love Talk #3

Catergory: Approaching

Sub Catergory: Street

Phrase

친구 기다리고 있어요.

I'm waiting for a friend.

Extra info:

This is said by both male and females.

Day #7- Irrelevance...

I feel really closed and irrelevant. Im starting to not care completely. I dont want to end my life or anything but I want to go away. Having noone to talk to seriously about the issues I have but every other week  and an ocassional conversation with my best friend is not enough. To not bbe able to feel comfortable crying even by myself is  stressful. To not sleep unless I am completely unaware of  falling asleep, loosing hours of my day to feel normal when Im still not sure what it feels like. I need human contact but I dont want it or know how to do it. Im generic when its that kind of situation. To not have someone to physically touch and bond with and completely understand what Im going through (even I have a hard time understanding and I have researched it continuously) is weighing on me. Trying to be strong and smile and ignore the comments is not helping. These days have been going downhill for me. I think going on this family reunion trip without support broke me down to a low level. I just want to get away and go to far place and disappear from everyone for a few days... No years but unfortunately I cant. Getting false help from folks who know nothing of what Im going through or even trying. I want to cry... I think my anxiety disorder is transforming into depression. Yes I know anxiety is a formof depression but it is also seperate but can be linked in most cases. In my case, it is becoming overbearing. I just.... Thanks~~

Korean Word of the Day

회고 사원 - Mosque

          ex. 회고 사원에서는 무슬림교인들이 매일 기도를

                합니다.  - At a Mosque, muslims pray everyday.

다리 - Leg

          ex. 비가 오면 다리에 통중이 옵니다.  - I have pain in my

                legs when it rains.

과일 - Fruit

          ex.  하루에 적어도 한번씩 과일을 먹는게 좋습니다. -

                 You should eat fruit at least once a day.

초- Candle

          ex. 정전을 대비에서 초를 준비해 두세요.  - Keep candles

                handy just in case the electricity goes out.

웨이트리스 - Waitress

          ex.  웨이트리스가 쟁반에 컵을 들고 있어요.-

                 The waitress is holding a tray with glasses.

Study hard study good ^-^



Day #6- Where's My Muchness?

 

I feel really ugly this evening. Not just oh im not pretty, I want to pretty, but ugly. My self esteem is at an all time low right now to where I want to cry. Im in Atlanta right now and I just feel so ugly... Its hard enough to not be able to sleep now without motivation of a movie or tv/animation series. I hate having these ups and downs. I am shallow breathing and feeling my old urges and thoughts coming back. I keep trying to tell myself "I am fine and healthy and pretty" but these past days when I get in front of the mirror and try to say it, I freeze up and leave and do whatever I have planned. I feel my 할머니 is becoming an annoyance to me, no not just her but 여러분. I feel trapped and crowded. As in the words of the Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland, Tim Burtons adaption, "You've lost your muchness." I am losing my muchness and not sure how to bring it back...

Thanks>>

Love Talk #2

 

Catergory: Approaching

Sub Catergory: Street

Phrase

누구랑 만나기로 했나요?

Are you waiting for someone?

Extra info:

This is said by both male and females.

BIG BANG - Monster (KOR+ENG)

Korean Hangul

오랜만이야 못 본 사이 그댄 얼굴이 좋아 보여
예뻐졌다 넌 항상 내 눈엔 원래 고와 보여
근데 오늘따라 조금 달라 보여 유난히 뭔가 더 차가워 보여
나를 보는 눈빛이 동정에 가득 차있어 네 앞에서 난 작아 보여

괜찮은 척 애써 대화주제를 바꿔버려
묻고 싶은 말은 많은데 넌 딱 잘라버려
네 긴 머린 찰랑거려 내 볼을 때리곤 스쳐지나
뒤돌아선 곧장 가버려 여기서 널 잡으면 우스워지나

아무 말도 떠오르지 않죠 떨면서 넌 한두 발짝 뒤로
이젠 내가 무섭단 그 말 날 미치게 하는 너란 달

I love you baby I’m not a monster
넌 알잖아 예전 내 모습을 시간이 지나면 사라져 버릴 텐데
그 땐 알 텐데 baby
I need you baby I’m not a monster
날 알잖아 이렇게 가지마 너마저 버리면 난 죽어버릴 텐데
I’m not a monster

무슨 일이 있어도 영원하자고
슬플 때도 기쁠 때도 끝까지 하자고
You don’t say that tomorrow
오늘이 마지막인 것처럼 사랑하자고

너 없는 삶은 종신형 세상과 단절돼 돌 지경이야
너란 존재는 고질병 시련의 연속 마음 속 미련이야
세상사람들이 내게 돌린 등 모든 것이 베베 꼬여있던 눈초리들
내게 가장 큰 아픔은 (아픔은) 네가 그들 같아졌단 것뿐

I love you baby I’m not a monster
넌 알잖아 예전 내 모습을 시간이 지나면 사라져 버릴 텐데
그 땐 알 텐데 baby
I need you baby I’m not a monster
날 알잖아 이렇게 가지마 너마저 버리면 난 죽어버릴 텐데
I’m not a monster

가지마 가지마 가지마 떠나지 말아
하지마 하지마 하지마 너 같지않아
멀어진 채로 사랑은 걸러진 채로
찾지마 찾지마 찾지마 날 찾지 말아
마지막 마지막 마지막
네 앞에 서 있는
내 모습을 기억해줘 날 잊지 말아줘

I love you baby I’m not a monster
넌 알잖아 예전 내 모습을 시간이 지나면 사라져 버릴 텐데
그 땐 알 텐데 baby
I need you baby I’m not a monster
날 알잖아 이렇게 가지마 너마저 버리면 난 죽어버릴 텐데
I’m not a monster

I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick
I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick

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English Translation

It’s been a while. Seems like you’re doing better since I’ve seen you last.
You got prettier too, though you always looked beautiful in my eyes
But you seem a little different today; you seem unusually cold
The gaze you put on me is full of pity, in front of you, I look small

I act like it’s fine, I try to change the subject.
I have a lot I want to ask, but you cut me off.
Your hair flows in the wind, and it hits me on my cheeks and leave.
You turn around and leave just like that, would I look silly if I try to hold you back?

I cant think of anything to say, Trembling, you take two steps back.
Your words that you are afraid of me, You are the one that makes me crazy

I love you, baby i’m not a monster
You know the old me, When the time passes, I will have to disappear, You’ll know then baby
I need you, baby i’m not a monster
You know me, It ends, but if you leave me like this, I will die
I’m not a monster.

You say, let us be together forever no matter what happens.
You say, let us be together when we’re happy and when we’re sad.
You don’t (won’t) say that tomorrow..
I say, let’s love today as if it’s the last day.

Yo, the world without you is like a capital punishment
The world doesn’t go correctly without you
Your existence has become an incurable illness for me
Everyone may look at me with judging eyes,
but what really hurts is the fact that you have become a part of that ‘everyone.

I love you, baby i’m not a monster
You know the old me, When the time passes, I will have to disappear, You’ll know then baby
I need you, baby i’m not a monster
You know me, It ends, but if you leave me like this, I will die
I’m not a monster.

Don’t go, Don’t go, Don’t go, Don’t leave me
Don’t do this, Don’t do this, Don’t do this, You don’t seem to be yourself
Still far apart, With love still divided
Don’t look for me, Don’t look for me, Don’t look for me, Don’t look for me
Last, last, last
Please remember the me that stood next to you
Please don’t ever forget me
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I love you, baby i’m not a monster
You know the old me, When the time passes, I will have to disappear, You’ll know then baby
I need you, baby i’m not a monster
You know me, It ends, but if you leave me like this, I will die.
I’m not a monster.

I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick.
I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick.

BIG BANG - Bad Boy (KOR+ENG)

Korean Hangul

그날 밤은 내가 너무 심했어 니가 진짜로 떠나갈 줄은 몰랐어
“내가 미안해” 이 말 한마디 어려워서 우린 끝까지 가 내 성격이 더러워서
말도 안 되는 일로 다투기를 하루에도 수십 번
넌 울면서 뛰쳐나가 난 주위를 두리번
다시 돌아오겠지 내일이면 분명 먼저 연락이 오겠지 아침이면

Baby 난 못해 너무나 못 돼서 더 잘해주고 싶은데 잘 안돼
Everyday & night I’m so mean cuz I’m so real so I’m sorry (but I can’t change)

니가 사랑하는 나는 Sorry i’m a bad boy
그래 차라리 떠나 잘 가요 you’re a good girl
시간이 갈수록 날 알면은 알수록 실망만 남았겠지만

Baby don’t leave me I know you still love me
왜 그래 솔직히 나 말해 니가 필요해 my lay lay lay lay lady my lay lay lay lay lady

보통남자와 달라 너무 힘들다고
넌 아직도 소녀같이 너무 여려 매일같이 웃어주는 네 곁엔 내가 너무 어려
바쁘다는 핑계로 약속을 미뤄버려 미안한 나 속상한 마음에 고개를 돌려버려
내 꿈속의 신부 이제 그냥 친구 헤어짐이 아쉬운 우리들의 침묵

Baby 난 못해 너무나 못 돼서 더 잘해주고 싶은데 그게 안돼
Everyday & night I’m so mean cuz I’m so real so I’m sorry (but I can’t change)

니가 사랑하는 나는 Sorry I ‘m a bad boy
그래 차라리 떠나 잘 가요 you’re a good girl
시간이 갈수록 날 알면은 알수록 실망만 남았겠지만

Baby don’t leave me I know you still love me
왜 그래 솔직히 나 말해 니가 필요해 my lay lay lay lay lady my lay lay lay lay lady

아무 말 하지마 괜히 강한 척 했지만 속은 달라
날 버리지마 내게는 너만큼 날 이해해줄 사람
은 없단 걸 넌 알고 있잖아요 baby
Oh 그대 come back to me ye ye ye

니가 사랑하는 나는 Sorry i’m a bad boy
그래 차라리 떠나 잘가요 you’re a good girl
시간이 갈수록 날 알면은 알수록 실망만 남았겠지만

Baby don’t leave me I know you still love me
왜 그래 솔직히 나 말해 니가 필요해 my lay lay lay lay lady my lay lay lay lay lady

니가 사랑하는 나는 Sorry i’m a bad boy Sorry i’m a bad boy Sorry i’m a bad boy
그래 차라리 떠나 잘 가요 you’re a good girl you’re a good girl you’re a good girl
니가 사랑하는 나는 Sorry i’m a bad boy Sorry i’m a bad boy Sorry i’m a bad boy
그래 차라리 떠나 잘 가요 you’re a good girl you’re a good girl you’re a good girl

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English Translation

I was too harsh that night
I didn’t know you would really leave
The words, “I’m sorry”, is too difficult for us that we take it to the end
Because I’m ill-tempered
We fight over stupid things numerous times a day
You take off crying, I look around and think,
‘She’ll come back tomorrow. She’ll def call me first in the morning’

Baby, I can’t, I’m so bad that I want to be good to you but it’s hard
Everyday and night I’m so mean cuz I’m so real so I’m sorry (but I can’t change)

Me, whom you love, Sorry I’m a bad boy
Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
The more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain but
Baby don’t leave me, I know you still love me
Why, yes, I’ll tell you the truth, I need you
My lay lay lay lay lady
My lay lay lay lay lady

You’re different from normal boys, it’s so hard
You’re still so sensitive like a girl
Next to you, who is always smiling next tome, I’m still too young
With the excuse that I’m busy, I postpone our date
Because I’m sorry, because I’m frustrated, I turn my head
The bride in my dreams is just a friend now
Upset over the breakup, we are silent

Baby, I can’t, I’m so bad that I want to be good to you but it’s hard
Everyday and night I’m so mean cuz I’mso real so I’m sorry (but I can’t change)

Me, whom you love, Sorry I’m a bad boy
Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
The more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain but
Baby don’t leave me, I know you still love me
Why, yes, I’ll tell you the truth, I need you
My lay lay lay lay lady
My lay lay lay lay lady

Don’t say a thing
I act tough but I’m not inside
Don’t abandon me
You know that there’s no one who will understand me like you, baby
Oh you, comeback to me ye ye ye

Me, whom you love, Sorry I’m a bad boy
Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl
The more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain but

Baby don’t leave me, I know you still love me
Why, yes, I’ll tell you the truth, I need you
My lay lay lay lay lady
My lay lay lay lay lady

Me, whom you love, sorry I’m a bad boy, sorry I’m a bad boy, sorry I’ma bad boy
Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl, you’re a good girl, you’re a good girl
Me, whom you love, sorry I’m a bad boy, sorry I’m a bad boy, Sorry I’ma bad boy
Yes, just leave me, good bye, you’re a good girl, you’re a good girl, you’re a good girl

BIG BANG- Fantastic Baby (KOR+ENG)

Korean Hangul

여기 붙어라 모두 모여라 WE GON’ PARTY LIKE 리리리라라라
맘을 열어라 머릴 비워라 불을 지펴라 리리리라라라

정답은 묻지 말고 그대로 받아들여 느낌대로 가 ALRIGHT하늘을 마주하고 두 손을 다 위로 저 위로 날뛰고 싶어 OH

나나나나나 나나나나나 WOW FANTASTIC BABY
DANCE I WANNA DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE FANTASTIC BABY
DANCE I WANNA DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE WOW FANTASTIC BABY”

이 난장판에 HEY 끝판 왕 차례 HEY땅을 흔들고 3분으론 불충분한 RACE WAIT분위기는 과열 HUH CATCH ME ON FIRE HUH진짜가 나타났다 나나나나

하나부터 열까지 모든 게 다 한 수위
모래 벌판 위를 미친 듯이 뛰어봐도 거뜬한 우리
하늘은 충분히 너무나 푸르니까
아무것도 묻지 말란 말이야 느끼란 말이야 내가 누군지

네 심장소리에 맞게 뛰기 시작해 막이 끝날 때까지 YE

I CAN’T BABY DON’T’ STOP THIS 오늘은 타락해 (미쳐 발악해) 가는거야

WOW FANTASTIC BABY
DANCE I WANNA DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE FANTASTIC BABY
DANCE I WANNA DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE WOW FANTASTIC BABY”
BOOMSHAKALAKAx3 DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE**

날 따라 잡아볼 테면 와봐 난 영원한 딴따라
오늘 밤 금기란 내겐 없어 mama just let me be your lover이 혼란 속을 넘어 나나나나나

머리끝부터 발끝까지 비쥬얼은 쇼크 내 감각은 소문난 꾼 앞서가는 촉

남들보다는 빠른 걸음 차원이 다른 젊음 얼음얼음얼음 HOLD UP 나나나나나

네 심장소리에 맞게 뛰기 시작해 막이 끝날 때까지 YE

I CAN’T BABY DON’T STOP THIS 오늘은 타락해 (미쳐 발악해) 가는거야

WOW FANTASTIC BABY
DANCE I WANNA DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE FANTASTIC BABY
DANCE I WANNA DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE WOW FANTASTIC BABY
BOOMSHAKALAKAx3 DAN DAN DAN DAN DANCE

다 같이 놀자 YE YE YE 다 같이 뛰자 YE YE YE다 같이 돌자 YE YE YE 다 같이 가자

WOW FANTASTIC BABY

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English Translation

Come together, everyone gather here
We gon’ party like lilililalala
Open your hearts, empty your minds
Set the fire lilililalala

Don’t ask for the answer but just take it as it is, go with the flow alright
Face the sky and put your two hands up, up high, wanna jump around oh

Nananana Nananana Wow Fantastic Baby
Dance I Wanna Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance Fantastic Baby
Dance I Wanna Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance Wow Fantastic Baby

In this crazy house HEY at the end, it’s the king’s turn HEY
The ground is shaking and 3 minutes is not enough for this race, wait
The atmosphere is overheated Huh Catch Me On Fire Huh
The Real has appeared nanana

From one to ten, everything is one level above
Even if we crazily run on sand, we’re still so agile
Because the sky is blue enough,
Don’t ask any questions, just feel it – feel who I am

Jump at the sound of your heartbeat till this comes to an end yeahI Can’t Baby Don’t Stop This
Just go corrupt today (go crazy and rave) let’s go

Wow Fantastic Baby
Dance I Wanna Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance Fantastic Baby
Dance I Wanna Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance Wow Fantastic Baby
Boomshakalaka x3 Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance

Catch me if you can, I’m forever a performer
There are no constraints for me tonight Mama Just Let Me Be Your Lover
Past this chaos nananana

From my head to my toes, there’s a visual shock
People know me for my senses that are always ahead

My footsteps are faster than others
My youth is a different dimension
Ice ice ice Hold Up nananana

Jump at the sound of your heartbeat till this comes to an end yeahI Can’t Baby Don’t Stop This
Just go corrupt today (go crazy and rave) let’s go

Wow Fantastic Baby
Dance I Wanna Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance Fantastic Baby
Dance I Wanna Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance Wow Fantastic BabyBoomshakalaka x3 Dan Dan Dan Dan Dance

Let’s all play together Ye Ye Ye let’s all jump together Ye Ye Ye
Let’s all go crazy together Ye Ye Ye Let’s all go together
Wow Fantastic Baby

Day 5- Its getting good

Feeling Good

I don't have much to say now. I have been pretty good, maybe a little shallow breathing but it occurs at night most of the time. I have started to ease out of room like leaving the door unlocked or open but that just cannot happen with the family I live with so now I will continue to keep my door closed and locked unless otherwise. My therapist tells me I am under a lot of stress living in my home and being around my family. She said its because they don't understand what I am going through and will not research it but still try to give me advice on what to do. They also handle me with roughness and sarcastic comments like it helps. It does not. Any ways, personally and physically I am doing waaaaaay better than I was 3 weeks ago. I still sleep on my floor in my room . I don't think I am ready to try the bed yet. I have been helping my self-esteem by posting and starting my YouTube channel which requires me to look presentable. So dressing up a bit has been helping me feel better about myself. It also has been helping me with social anxiety or better yet shyness. I am trying to use Skype so that can help also but I am sooooo nervous and scared that I feel it makes the other people who want to Skype me feel bad about even adding me... ahhhhhh.. Overall I feel better for the most part.

Oh and This weekend I am going to Atlanta GA for a family reunion. I am hoping that will give me some good therapeutic space from my room since I'm in here all the time, so it should be fun. I'm going to the zoo ^o^ !!!(kid moment)

Thanks~~

Vlog #5- Me and Kpop

Talking about my relationship with Kpop and how I am not a Kpop Addict.

Dont shoot meh!!

Love Talk #1

So its going to start all soft then eventually get good and naughty, ooooOOOOooo ^.^

Catergory: Approaching

Sub Catergory: Street

Phrase

지금 혼자인가요?

Are you alone?

Extra info:

This is said by both male and females.

New posts hmmm.

Im thinking about the following things:

1. start a Kpop thread with lyrics and translations
2. to add to #1 my thoughts on the song
3. Love talk- Korean phrase a week with a Love talk phrase ranging from hello to lets go do "it" lol
4. talk about my art and show it once a week
5. figure out how to get more subscribers for my blog and youtube channel...
6. Change my blog design

thats my thoughts

Vlog #4- Big Bang and 2NE1... WTH man???

Not Korean but Kpop and how I am in a dilemma lol

Dont shoot meh!!

Korean Word of the day

비디오카세트 녹화기 -VCR

         ex. 어떤 사람이 비디오카세트 녹화기에 테이프를 넣고

              있습니다.  - The person is inserting a tape into the VCR.

수탁인 - Consignee(just in case not familiar with the word: The

                one to whom something, such as goods or merchandise, is

                consigned)

         ex.  수탁인에게 전할하다 - deliver to the consignee

자- Ruler

         ex. 자로 줄과 줄 사이의 공간을 재세요. - Measure the

              spaces between the lines with a ruler.

비행 - Flight

         ex. 지체된 비행 - delayed flight

인기있는 - Popular

         ex. 차는 전 세계에서 인기있는 음료입니다.  - Tea is a

               popular drink throughout the world.

Sorry for the lateness T^T... Study hard and well!!

Practice #7

Back to Back...

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Practice #6

Some more practice ^-^

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Practice #5

More practice short.... I will make a longer one soon!!

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Day 4... adventurer well i guess

Hello again!!

Okay so these past few days this medicine works like a charm. I am feeling what what it feel like to feel normal and not normal. I know normally you dont feel your heartbeat and abnormally you constantly feel your hearbeat. My mind and body is coming to terms with this not completely yet but it is. This weekend I went out with my sister, cousin and aunt. I was so scared that I might have an attack or start breathing funny or something wrong. But I chose to ignore those toughts and it went fine. I did have instances where my heartrate increased and became loud but I did my breathing exercise and try to distract myself with the things in the mall. Me and my cousin talked about mental illness because she has been through something herself not anxiety but her own problems. that was nice although it was cut short... So I stepped out of my room and explored the world... well just the mall and it seemed like a new experience. I am so used to staying indoors and now in my room all day everyday, that I got tired really quickly and became drained. My eyes were red and I was pale. I was tired. I do go to the gym so its lack of exercise. I think its lack of human exposure that drained me.... My mind and body has been trying to play tricks on me lately though. It tells me to check my pulse. I refuse its been a week or so and I am proud of myself. As tempted as I may be, even now as I write this, I will not... A new symptom has popped up and it makes me feel like I have the wind spand of a windmill. Like I can hold my breath forever and be fine. but I think thats due to my anxiety as well because it is a common trait among anxiety sufferes to hold their breath without knowing so it makes it seem like i can sing a note forever when in fact I cant. I have to to get that under control.. hmmmm...

I guess thats all so bye bye!!

Practice #4

Heres some more. I was tired...

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Korean Word of the Day

찬륙하다 -Land (v.)

          ex.  비행기는 10시에 공항에 착륙할 것입니다. - The

                plane will land at the airport at 10 o'clock.

전직한 -Honest

           ex. 그는 너무 전직해서 거짓말을 할 수 없습니다.  - He

                was so honest that he just couldn't tell a lie. ( i feel the

                just shouldnt be there in the translation but whatevs

                >_>)

옷이 맞다 -Fit a Garment (v.)

           ex.  There is no example sentence... post one later.

동료-Colleague

           ex. 저는 오랫동안 대부분의 동료들과 일해 왔습니다. -

                 I have worked with most of colleagues for many years.

아니요 -No

           ex. 아니요, 괜찮아요 - No, thank you.

There you go keep it up.. mee too!! practice practice!!

Vlog #3- Dating life

Me talking about my dating life currently or lack there of lol

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Day 3~~

Not my room lol

My room, My sanctuary, its crowded.

I have been good. I am starting to come to realize what normal feels like. I think posting the youtube videos and praciting/studying Korean is helping me go back to way things were inside of me. Kind of theraputic! It keeps me busy and not worried or thinking about my heart or lungs having problems. One thing I will refuse to be is a hypochondriac. I want to be free from this one day and i feel it is coming soon. These past few days I have stayed in my room. I only leave to get food, the bathroom, and to speak to my grandmother because she is lonely(smh)... I stay in my room sleeping on the floor because its equivalent to the couch. I have tried sleeping in my bed many times since this all began but it makes my symptoms worse and I cant sleep at all.I dont know if I said it before but it all started in bed when I was sleeping when I had an anxiety or panic attack. It felt like I had a heart attack and my heart stopped. worse feeling ever. I havent had another one since then. This week the only things that had me anxious was shortness of breath and heart palpitations which I have ways to help with that. My family has just been quiet about me staying in my room, not really knowing what to say but some send little messages that are sweet. Being in my room is satisfying but its also crowded. Hmmmm... I guess thats all for now

Thanks~~